At the Last

So it's been a while since my last post and I've had several things floating through my head these days. But haven't take the time to turn them into something understandable.

Over the last week I've really wrestled with the "lukewarmness" of American Christianity and even how comfortable I have gotten within my personal relationship with Christ. Not that I doubt my salvation, but that I doubt the boldness that I live it out making the most of every opportunity that I have been given. Living this life fully with each breath in a way that brings the Father joy and expands His goodness. Living something other than just a good Christian Life.

Check the lyrics of the song that was on repeat in head along with Matthew 25:31-46


Its a shame that some must go without,
But I was no fool to think it might be my problem.
Needy hands were reaching out;
I kept my spare change and my pride in a tight fist.

And now at the last, everything is changed in this pale light
That death has cast on all Ive done - on all I've done.

Im a good man on the whole;
Who could blame me for looking out for number one?
I never killed, I never stole;
A small indulgence now and then, so what of it?

Im a good man.
Im a good man.
Am I a good man?
I thought I was,
But the rewards of this life now count for naught.
My body: soon buried and left to rot.
The times gone, how quickly it all has passed.
My God, now I see how Ive squandered each and every breath.

Now at the last, everything is changed in this pale light;
That death has cast on all Ive done.

Now at the last, everything is changed in this pale light;
And looking back I am undone - I am undone.