Saturday, August 06, 2005

It's so hard to be So Lazy!

Today has just been one of those days where it is 3 in the afternoon and I am still showerless, unshaven and still in my PJ's. I have done a few things around the house. I put a couple of pictures up in the Bathroom and replaced the towel racks and toilet paper rollers. Those are things that I have have put of for a little while now so I just decided to get it done. But still I feel I've accomplished very little today.

But, don't I deserve a day like this from time to time. I go all day almost everyday, at the church working, most days (even Saturday and Sundays) until 6pm (or later), sometimes till midnight. So I deserve a day of total complacency? RIGHT!!?? But why do I feel so disgusting about being lazy for a day? I know the importance of having a Sabbath where I don't do anything, Jesus even had days where he got away on a boat or up on the mountain. But I feel so guilty for taking mine. "Isn't there something more productive I could be doing?" Is the thought that keeps going through my head.

I never thought that I would get to where I couldn't just relax. Somehow I must have conditioned myself to this. Now I've got to change it. I've got to be able to take my days in relaxation.
I have to work at being lazy for a day....Isn't that an oxymoron or something....??

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